explaining myself

I saw this yesterday on instagram from @waytogoash, which is one of the most inspiring women! First she was one of my favorite photographers (you won't even believe how incredible her and her husbands work is), and now she's one of my favorite fit inspiring women!

 

Anywho, she posted this and it just tugged on my heart! And then I thought, oh man that's so sappy. But then I went back to thinking I LOVE THIS! I don't care if it's weird.

 

And that right there is going to be the definition of my new future I feel. This balance of defending myself. Not caring if people think I'm weird.

 

My real concern is them confusing my "weirdness" for judgment. Because I am so not judging. I'm not going to have that donut because I don't want it. I'm not directly telling you you shouldn't have it! Not even close to that!

 

I'm so new to this, and I'm going to try my best to navigate how to explain my heart to my friends and family. But it's going to be a challenge. I'm not sure how to accurately explain my thoughts. I'm not saying no to a donut to deny myself happiness from it, I'm able to get my happiness from other forms, so I'm just choosing not to have that donut. It's not about me being obsessed with not gaining weight or anything like that, it's about me not being obsessed with food. I never realized how much it dictated and ruled my choices in life, and I'm ready to let go of that.

 

The people pleasing part of me (which is large), wants to just give in and eat a donut for someone else. But how crazy is that??? I have to live my own life too, and make choices for me. I guess I just have to have more hope that the people in my life will learn to trust me, and know that this is my thing. It's not something I'm trying to force on anyone else, or provide guilt for. If you can eat what you want, I should be able to eat what I want. Fair?

 

Cool.

 

In googling help with this subject, I found this Whole9 post, which made me feel a little better. It's still not the perfect explanation to me, because again I want to make sure people know I have no judgment towards other peoples eatings. But it at least makes me feel less crazy.

 

"I eat real food – fresh, natural food like meat, vegetables and fruit. I choose foods that are nutrient-dense, with lots of naturally occurring vitamins and minerals, over foods that have more calories but less nutrition. And food quality is important – I’m careful about where my meat, seafood and eggs come from, and buy organic local produce as often as possible. I haven't exactly gotten to this point yet :/

This is not a “diet” – I eat as much as I need to maintain strength, energy, activity levels and a healthy body weight. I aim for well-balanced nutrition, so I eat both animals and a significant amount of plants. I’m not lacking carbohydrates – I just get them from vegetables and fruits instead of bread, cereal or pasta. And my meals are probably higher in fat than you’d imagine, but fat is a healthy source of energy when it comes from high-quality foods like avocado, coconut and grass-fed beef.

Eating like this is ideal for maintaining a healthy metabolism and reducing inflammation within the body. It’s good for body composition, energy levels, sleep quality, mental attitude and quality of life. It helps eliminate sugar cravings and reestablishes a healthy relationship with food. It also works to minimize your risk for a whole host of lifestyle diseases and conditions, like diabetes, heart attack, stroke and autoimmune."

 

A little thought nugget for the day. I will tweek the ideas a bit I'm sure when I have to explain life over and over and over in the coming future.

 

My workout today:

 

3 min treadmill 5% incline walk, 2 min treadmill 2% incline run, 5 min treadmill 1% incline run

 

15 seated dumbell curls

15 wide grip lat pulldown

(x5)

 

16 plank dumbell row

15 band wood chops on bosu ball

20 straight arm alternationg forward and sides, on bosu ball

(x4)

 

Alternating 30 seconds

Sprint on treadmill

Plank

(x7)

 

 

Party on!